This blog is my attempt to come to terms with and cope with splitting up with my girlfriend of five-and-half years. I don't know if it will help me but it will at least give me a record of what I have gone through, a place I can post my thoughts and feelings. Maybe it will be theraputic, help me to understand where we went wrong, help me to not make the same mistakes again. It will give me somewhere to vent my pain and frustration, to rage against the fates and the world, and occasionally my ex-girlfriend, although she doesn't deserve my rage, and possibly a place where I can watch an old love die and a new one be born.
There are no words to describe the loss and desperation and fear I feel right now. No way to tell anyone how my world has collapsed. How I cry all of the time and can thin of nothing but her. I know things will get better but I can't see when or how. Time is all I have on my side, the hope of an as-yet unforseeable brighter future. Nothing has ever hit me so hard, and I never believed anything could, but this is the hand I have been dealt, all aces and eights, and I have no choice but to play it.
